Today has been a long day for me. They say everything that can go wrong wrong, will go wrong, and it very nearly did. Of course, I cannot mention names, but believe me, if I was a smoker, 20 cigarettes would not have been enough.
Only one thing has held me together. The knowledge that no matter what happens, God is in control. Even in the instances that I thought the burden too heavy to bear, He gaveme strenth. When the tears were almost faling, He gave me a reason to smile. No matter what, I have felt his presence.
He is my hero.
Friday, April 30, 2010
Thursday, April 29, 2010
DISSAPONTMENTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am having a disappointing morning. Again I reitaerate that it is wrong to make a promise that you have no intention of honouring. Simply dont make it. So now my day is changed and my view of a certain someone has changed. Of course it has always been said that this person is a double crossre but me in my naivette believed that to be a fallacy. Well shock on me today morning to realise that the rumour is not baseless.
I guess that is life. You live, you learn.
I guess that is life. You live, you learn.
Sunday, April 25, 2010
NIMECHOKA!!!!!!!!!!!
I have barely had time to rest my weary body leave alone my mind. There are a million things to be done and only 24 hrs. Sometimes I wish that there were 2 of us to this job. Maybe things would be easier. I had a good day yesterday though. I think it is refreshing to know that there are people who you can depend on in your times of need. At the same time it taught me that by my self, I can do nothing. The power of prayer is amazing if you believe with all your heart. I have learnt that I have to trust in God more. I have learnt that I have to believe more in myself and those around me. That is the way to success.
Friday, April 16, 2010
SMILE
Yes, today I am in a very good mood. I may pretend not to know why ut I am pretty sure what the reason is, so I wont pretend. I also won't tell you the reason though.
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
tODAY HAS BEEN A ROLLERCOASTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Nothing really bad has happened except that my friend just broke up with her boyfriend of 5 years and not in the best way. I will not go into details but breakup is painful.
Friday, April 9, 2010
Manze Uko down...............................
What is it with people not being able to keep their promises? I don't get why you would promise to do something, and then renege on that!!!!!! I mean why say it if you dont mean it? Now i will clearly never be able to attend a morning class because my colleague has never gotten here on time!!!!!!!!!!! It is so frustrating and yet if, God forbid I were to get late, Heaven only knows what drama I would get. Is it that I am a push over or what? Or is it that my stuff is not as important as that of other people???
Enyewe God please saidia juu hii mambo Haileti shaow.
Enyewe God please saidia juu hii mambo Haileti shaow.
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
A Dollar a day.....................
I have always read that many people live below a dollar a day in Africa. And being a social worker I have had numerous occasions to witness this. Yet I have not really come up close and candid with this until yesterday. I hope that my friend will not be offended.
Yesterday was Easter monday, and as a fellowship team, we decided that we would at least share this one day together, at one of the members' houses. Grace* agreed to host us. It was decided that we would all contribute some money towards the festivities. Having never been to Grace's place, I had no expectations, except to have fun. We had agreed to meet at 3:00 pm. At 3:30 pm I was in the vicinity but was not sure where to go. A little girl came up to me with a big smile and said hi. she asked me where I was going, and gaily informed me that that was her sister. She introduced herself as atoti, told me the shcool she goes to and the class she was in, as well as her position - class prefect - and no she attained and other trivia until we reached the house.
While I tried not to let my dismay show on my face, I am not entirely certain that I was successful. They live in a mud house with rusted corrugated sheets for roofing. The floor is mud but has different pieces of plastic carpet to cover it. There are no windows which means that the door has to stay open at all times, unless it is dark then they light a small lantern. This family of 6 lives on a dollar for three days. There are 2 adults both female and four children. Grace sells seat covers which she makes in the house while her mother sells fish to feed, clothe and educate the family. Grace is physically impared but can walk while her mother doesn't have good eyesight. The children go to local schools but are more often than not at home because they do not have one of the many school requirements.
With all this, the family is still cheerful and happy. The children are polite and well diciplined. Although their clothes are not new, they are clean. We ended up leaving them with the money we had contributed, after all we could get food at home. It turns out that we were a blessing in disguise. They had not paid rent for 2 months, about USD 140, and did not have enough food to feed everybody. The adults had planned to take porrige for dinner so that the children could eat what was available.
Yesterday, I learned that I should not complain; I should alsways be grateful for what I have; others have it worse. I learned of the strength of humanity, when they have hope. I learned that I have a responsibility to step out of my cormfort zone and reach out to those who do not have as much as I do. I have a responsibility to highlight such cases so that my fellow brethren will not only appreciate what they have but be willing to help other achieve the same.
I have learned a lot indeed.
Yesterday was Easter monday, and as a fellowship team, we decided that we would at least share this one day together, at one of the members' houses. Grace* agreed to host us. It was decided that we would all contribute some money towards the festivities. Having never been to Grace's place, I had no expectations, except to have fun. We had agreed to meet at 3:00 pm. At 3:30 pm I was in the vicinity but was not sure where to go. A little girl came up to me with a big smile and said hi. she asked me where I was going, and gaily informed me that that was her sister. She introduced herself as atoti, told me the shcool she goes to and the class she was in, as well as her position - class prefect - and no she attained and other trivia until we reached the house.
While I tried not to let my dismay show on my face, I am not entirely certain that I was successful. They live in a mud house with rusted corrugated sheets for roofing. The floor is mud but has different pieces of plastic carpet to cover it. There are no windows which means that the door has to stay open at all times, unless it is dark then they light a small lantern. This family of 6 lives on a dollar for three days. There are 2 adults both female and four children. Grace sells seat covers which she makes in the house while her mother sells fish to feed, clothe and educate the family. Grace is physically impared but can walk while her mother doesn't have good eyesight. The children go to local schools but are more often than not at home because they do not have one of the many school requirements.
With all this, the family is still cheerful and happy. The children are polite and well diciplined. Although their clothes are not new, they are clean. We ended up leaving them with the money we had contributed, after all we could get food at home. It turns out that we were a blessing in disguise. They had not paid rent for 2 months, about USD 140, and did not have enough food to feed everybody. The adults had planned to take porrige for dinner so that the children could eat what was available.
Yesterday, I learned that I should not complain; I should alsways be grateful for what I have; others have it worse. I learned of the strength of humanity, when they have hope. I learned that I have a responsibility to step out of my cormfort zone and reach out to those who do not have as much as I do. I have a responsibility to highlight such cases so that my fellow brethren will not only appreciate what they have but be willing to help other achieve the same.
I have learned a lot indeed.
Friday, April 2, 2010
Youth mentoring and peer councelling
Today I am having a youth mentoring session, and while I enjoy talking to these young leaders, I sometimes dread their questions. Why you ask? well........................... let us just say that they can be very intimidating. Last month the topic was intercultural unity. wow...................... that was like opening a can of worms. I had various divergent views both personal and "passed on from socety about differnt cultures" and and the myths........................... We somehow got everything in perspective, but it was not easy. The hard part was especially trying to convince this people that while their parents are not necessarily liars (considering that they are the ones that pass on these myths to their children) they also do not know everything are are merely trying to protect their children the best way they know. phew............................ that was really hard.
This month, the topic is sexual orientation.............................. I expect to sweat, but its for the love of life that I do this, so I am not compalining. Wish me luck.
This month, the topic is sexual orientation.............................. I expect to sweat, but its for the love of life that I do this, so I am not compalining. Wish me luck.
I HAVE A FEELING........................................
That today is going to be a bad day........................ and no I am not spelling doom for myself. Its actually spiralling down faster than a torpedo.
Monday, March 29, 2010
WHICH ARE YOU???
Yesterday was a fun day for me. My pals and I were at Shades children's home in Riruta. Those children have energy. They also have amazing dreams and ambitions.
We had a story time that doubled as a get to know each other time. So our resident storyteller, Lipi, gave us a very good story that goes like............................
There once was a sheep, a dog and a goat on their way to the city center. They took a Kenya bus and were comfortably seated. The dog paid his fair but forgot to pick his change when alighting. He only remembered after the bus had gone some distance. The goat got off before he could pay his fair, while the sheep paid his fair, got his right change and alighted.
That is why the dogs run after vehicles to get their change; Goats run away from vehicles as they fear they may be accosted for absconding from paying; while sheep don't particularly car about vehicles as they know that their conscience is clear. They did the right thing.
We are all leaders in society, one way or the other. We have social as well as moral responsibilities to both our countries and our societies. Take the analogy that the vehicle is history, which animal will you be?
The dog that did not do what was suppossed to be done at the right time and is theirfore always after a chance to do it? or the goat that feels embarrased to face history because he knew what the right thing to do was but did not do it? How about the sheep that did the right thing at the right time and theirfore has no fear being scrutinised?
We had a story time that doubled as a get to know each other time. So our resident storyteller, Lipi, gave us a very good story that goes like............................
There once was a sheep, a dog and a goat on their way to the city center. They took a Kenya bus and were comfortably seated. The dog paid his fair but forgot to pick his change when alighting. He only remembered after the bus had gone some distance. The goat got off before he could pay his fair, while the sheep paid his fair, got his right change and alighted.
That is why the dogs run after vehicles to get their change; Goats run away from vehicles as they fear they may be accosted for absconding from paying; while sheep don't particularly car about vehicles as they know that their conscience is clear. They did the right thing.
We are all leaders in society, one way or the other. We have social as well as moral responsibilities to both our countries and our societies. Take the analogy that the vehicle is history, which animal will you be?
The dog that did not do what was suppossed to be done at the right time and is theirfore always after a chance to do it? or the goat that feels embarrased to face history because he knew what the right thing to do was but did not do it? How about the sheep that did the right thing at the right time and theirfore has no fear being scrutinised?
Friday, March 26, 2010
FUNDAMENTAL DIFFERENCES
Weird heading huhh? Yeah it is for a reason. Everyday, I find more fundamental differences between the fairer sex and their male counterparts. Yesterday, my friend - let's call her D - ( and no that is not me) had drama. There was a colleague who was to drop her off at a certain point. Unfortunately he realised that he had carried another colleagues phone(men!!!) so he had to go back. So d asked him to drop her off as someone was waiting to give her a ride home. Note that she lives quite a distance from Nairobi. This guy - the driver decided that no, "we are coming back really quick so tell the guy waiting to wait on". First difference - because they were to pass the drop off point anyway, why didn't he just drop her????????? moving on......................
So they come back to the office and give off the phone. Meanwhile the ride home gets irritated at being kept so he leaves. That I can understand. So would I. Get irritated I mean. Second difference....................... Considering that He had a habit of keeping her waiting on numerous previous occasions, !!!!!!!!!!! he could have just waited for an extra 20 min!!!!!!!!!! Then he calls her and sparks at her and she gets angry and sparks at him bla bla blah...........................................
Third difference....................................... He calls back, not to apologise for at least his part, but to tell her that she should apologise and that he will see her tomorrow. TOMMORROW huh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! like....................... so not happening!!!!!!!!!!
Meanwhile the first driver is also pissed at D coz she is pissed at him. As far as he is concerned, He is innocent of any wrong doing and if anything, D should apologise!!!!!! but remember she now has to incur an expense of taking a cab home. Lucky enough, her neighbour was close by and saved the day, although she still took a cab so that she could meet him.
So they come back to the office and give off the phone. Meanwhile the ride home gets irritated at being kept so he leaves. That I can understand. So would I. Get irritated I mean. Second difference....................... Considering that He had a habit of keeping her waiting on numerous previous occasions, !!!!!!!!!!! he could have just waited for an extra 20 min!!!!!!!!!! Then he calls her and sparks at her and she gets angry and sparks at him bla bla blah...........................................
Third difference....................................... He calls back, not to apologise for at least his part, but to tell her that she should apologise and that he will see her tomorrow. TOMMORROW huh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! like....................... so not happening!!!!!!!!!!
Meanwhile the first driver is also pissed at D coz she is pissed at him. As far as he is concerned, He is innocent of any wrong doing and if anything, D should apologise!!!!!! but remember she now has to incur an expense of taking a cab home. Lucky enough, her neighbour was close by and saved the day, although she still took a cab so that she could meet him.
DRAMA! DRAMA! DRAMA!
I am a regular drama queen, Yes I acknowlwdge that! But if I gave you my size 5 shoes, so would you. I mean, how many people do you know can put up with what I do on a daily basis? I have 4 jobs that I have to take care of, translates to no social life at alll!!!!!! That in itself puts me on the list for sainthood, Right behind mother Theresa.
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